I was actually dreading this holiday season as my clock has started to run backwards. One less Christmas, one less New Years, but as usual my nieces, nephews & friends have reminded me to look forward and be assured that they will take care of me when I can no longer take care of myself.
I spent this holiday, cleaning, planning, organizing and just simply laying around. Taking time to re-establish my goals & reset my dreams. I have talked or texted with just about everybody I know and realize that some have been drifting away and I need to take time to bring them back to the fold.
I also realized that I have been neglecting myself lately; I need to focus inward & keep my eyes forward. More than once my mind has drifted to the what was & what could have beens more frequently than is healthy.
We can't have that now. I have so many things I still want to do... not a bucket list because as I tell everyone, I have done everything I ever wanted....and some things I didn't want to! I have no regrets because each choice good or bad has gotten me to this point.
Heard a saying in a movie today: Everything will be alright in the end. If its not alright, you are not at the end.
I'm glad I am not at the end.
Happy New Years.